Wednesday Morning And I'm Still Not Asleep Since Tuesday.
I Just Cant. You Know Why... Here I Go Again,
Staring In The Emptiness. Looking All Gloomy, Sad,
Thinking Thinking Thinking. I Think I'm Gonna
Be Sick/Ill. Maybe Because Of What I Said In My Private Blog.
My Decision. My Everything.
And There I Go Again, Hahahaha...
Even This Simple Task Of Typing Is Easily Bothered.
I Just Stop My Fingers And I'll Automatically
Be In Screen Saver Mode. WTH???
Yeah, I'm Sick.. Really Am.. ____ Sick...


In Life, I've Failed Before But This Is
My Worst Failure Ever. Such A Bother.

While Listening To Random Songs,
Suddenly I Laughed Sarcastically.
That Song. The Lyrics..

" I Will Never Find Another ......
More Sweeter Than ......... "

' All My Life '

Was I A Fool? I Sang This
Song Before, Those Words, The Lyrics,
I Meant Every Single One That Came Out
From My Mouth.. Again, In Vain...


Enough Chit Chat...
My Head's Heavy...
SICK SICK SICKO!!!

PANADOL ANYONE??
I Need Food, Have Not Been
Eating Regularly And I Definitely Need Rest.
I'm Kinda Night Person...
So Afternoon Naps Are My Hobbies..


No One Can Change Me Right Now
Except For Myself.
I Need Help, But Only
I Can Help Myself.
Now I'm Left All Alone To Be Independent.
I WISH!!! LOL..

If Only I Was Born With
A Self Destruct Button..


BOOM!!!!



GTG KUDDOS!!!

Afraid To Say?
Afraid To Tell?
Can't Get Out?

Why Must Someone Else
Be The Sacrificial Lamb?

Cause That Person Is
Someone Weak?
Or Strong?

Theres Something Called
The Biggest Mistake Ever.
Theres Something Called
Child's Play.

Reality, Theres Something
Called Won't Turn Back.
And " Won't ", Would Be
Replaced By " Can't ",
Eventually...

I'll Not Die Till
I'm Murdered..
And I'll Keep On
Enduring The Sufferings
Till I Die Of God's Will.

I'm Already Prepared For
My Journey,
And Obstacles Faced.
Cause In The
Battlefield, I Rather
Die A Lonely Death.
But It Would Be Better,
If I Have A Home To
Return To.


No Link?
Figure It Out...

See Ya....

2009, Where Everything Blossoms And Withered.
When I Really Listened To Song Lyrics And
Absorbed It All Meaningfully. It's All About Feelings.
Songs That Brightened Up Your Day, Songs That
Caused Downpour On Your Cheeks, No Matter
What, It Wont Mean Anything If The Lyrics
Are Not Appreciated. I'm Not A Fan Of Miley
Cyrus But I Kinda Love One Of Her Songs.
THE CLIMB. It Really Meant A Lot To Me.
I Dunnoe Why I Have A Sudden Urge To Watch
HANNAH MONTANNAH THE MOVIE On MIO TV.
Maybe Because These Nothing Else On, And I'm Dead
Bored Plus Tired That I Canceled Takraw. Almost To
The End Part Of The Movie, Miley Stewart Reveals
The Truth About Hannah And Sang THE CLIMB.
Very Emotional. She Was Afraid Of Losing The People
She Loved, Cared. (Actually More Than That).
That Part Touched Me Because Something
Happened To Me Too. I Was Happy Only For That
Moment But, It Was Worth Being Happy
About. Songs Listened In 2009, Do Have Connections
With My Miserable Well Being... And I'm Happy
To Know I Was Born With Feelings, Emotions,
No Matter How Good Or Painful It Have Been..
Life Is Rough, Appreciate All The Goodness In Life,
Love Those Dearly To You And Sadness, Is A
Sign Saying That You Have A Heart...

I Wish Things Wouldn't Be This Way...
If Only I Could Time Travel...
If Only You Knew LOVE..

Some People May Be New At It But It
Doesn't Mean That They Don't Even Know.
They Could Even Know More Than The
More Experienced Ones. Is Just That
They Don't Show It. When The Time Is
Right, What They Will Show Will Be
What You Always Wanted. What You
Wanted To See, Feel, Know... Different
People Have Different Attitudes. Knowing
Others Very Well, Knowing What To Expect,
Learning Everything And Able To Cope
With The Stress Knowing The Boundaries.

Wisdom Doesn't Come From Experience
Alone. More Than That.

I'm Blabbering Nonsense Again.
Hahaha.. Just Feel Like Typing
And Blog's Updated.


Lying Down On An Open Field,
Smelling The Sweet Aroma From
Colorful Flowers, Breathe In The
Fresh Air, Away From Civilization,
Gazing Through The Night, The
Moon And Stars Brightening Up
The Sky, Hoping For A Beautiful
Sight, Waiting For A Shooting
Star. Feel Mother Nature At It's
Best. Eyes Closing, Capturing The
Moments In Mind, Awaiting For
A Total Body Shutdown....

A Wish...

Gonna Hit The Shower,
So,
BUZZ OFF FREAKS!!!!!!

Complications, Nerves, Everything Thats Argumentative
Comes Down To This. UNDERSTANDING.
Understanding Each And Every Situation Is The Key
To Success. We Must Learn To Understand Each
And Everything Around Us. Nature, People, Systems
etc... It's Hard To Understand When We Really Don't
Intend To Listen Or Learn. Its Even Worst Listening
For The Sake Of Listening. Gain Nothing. Won't
Understand Thus Making Life Difficult For Others
And Yourselves. I Know Its Always Hard To Understand
My Blabbering Cause Thats Just Me. I'm Complicated.
So Bear With It. Try To Decode Each And Every Posts
Of Mine. Some People Just Don't Understand.
UNDERSTAND, UNDERSTOOD!